I decided to write a bit more at the end of the novel. It felt so incomplete, and I was so unsatisfied with the ending. I have started to find the perfect end for that story, although this will /might be a neverending process, a never-ending story.
I am very aware of my writing abilities- so , there isn´t such a thing as the perfect ending (in my case)
I won´t find it. I have to stop trying this.
Noone is perfect. Right. Interestingly, I try to write a perfect story-knowing, I cannot do it anyway.
So, why am I setting myself such high aims? To torture myself?
I just want to entertain my readers- my fam and some friends.
This knowledge, the knowledge of having a real audience, motivates me more than I have ever thought of.
My draft is just the end result of fun and hard work.
At the moment I don´t care about the fact that all the hard trying to find a perfect ending won´t lead to a published versíon.
Some people said to me that it makes no sense writing a novel without being published. I can understand their way of thinking, but I write for fun, for me and for a handful of people. These persons are important for me and their opinion, their feedback means a lot to me.
So I can improve my writing and next year I´ll write another novel that they can enjoy,hopefully.
Yesterday, Eli Ross posted a quote, I really like-
""Your fans and friends think your books are great, no matter what anyone else says."
So, because of my own satisfaction and fun and my small but real audience, I try to do my best to revise the draft as good as possible.
Even one of them enjoys reading a single quote-I´ll be really happy about it.
Enjoy your hobbies out there, and try to do the impossible, if necessary. Have fun and a good start in the week.